I want to be more honest with myself
but am extremely afraid of the brutality honesty requires.
I pray the heart were strong enough to accept that
it isn’t love but temptation.
Is it self-love to steal something from someone who are happy with what I want
or is it selfishness?
Is it their choice to walk to me
when I’ve intricately hand crafted each detail of their desire
or is it manipulation?
I cannot be the designer of the foolishness,
the lust in their eyes when they look at me;
I cannot possibly have contrived the filth in their heads
how can you then hold me responsible?
We must walk to our sins on our own feet.
I am guilty of loving,
a mistake I shall never repeat.
But to thieve that chance from you
am I saving you from the burn or pushing you into it
how is one to know?
"A mistake I shall never repeat."
It wasn't. It never is. The only mistake was the person who made you feel that it is.